Your Ego is Not Your Amigo and Other Words of Wisdom from Yoga

Yoga has always been one of those things that I’ve known was good for me but I couldn’t ever (okay, wouldn’t ever) make time for it.

I had a few issues with yoga:

  • It didn’t feel like a rigorous enough work out for me
  • I couldn’t shut my brain off enough to even focus on my breath
  • As a long time runner, I didn’t think I was flexible enough



A few months ago, I went to a spin class and the next morning I woke up with major pain in my lower back. It was a feeling I had never experienced and I did not enjoy it. Mainly, it was because I knew my body was telling me something. That perhaps sitting all day at work with little movement and then completing a rigorous few hours of running, spinning, and strength combinations was not good for me.

While I was out of commission with my back injury, I realized that I truly was not taking enough time to recover and stretch. I promised myself that I would  start going to yoga once a week. This seemed like an achievable goal.

I started going to Flow Yoga sessions about a month or so ago and I’ve noticed a big difference. The difference isn’t with my body though. I am not one to shy away from the anxiety I developed after having cancer and still face sometimes. Doing yoga once a week and finding calmness via my breath or the flowing movements or simply holding one position has truly helped me. I leave each class thinking about the commitment I made in the studio and how it can help me in my daily life. I find that I’m calmer (in a good way!).

A recent instructor used the theme, “Your Ego is Not Your Amigo” throughout a class. She reminded us that every pose in the class or every action during your day, does not need to perfect. We focus so much on what things “supposed to” look or feel like or what we are “supposed to” be like that we forgot to focus on what feels right for each of us in our individual ways. She reminded us that differences are a positive.

This really resonated with me in two ways. My differences (cancer survivor/amputee) have truly made me the person I am and I am grateful for that. Differences are wonderful! Differences make teams great. A diverse team can teach each other in many ways.

Yoga really teaches you to know yourself and be present which are important traits. So while I am a newbie to yoga, I’m loving it and seeing positive changes from it!


Challenging Myself Beyond Endurance Sports

Over the past year, I’ve taken a big step back from running. I wasn’t really enjoying it like I once had and to be quite honest, my body wasn’t tolerating 7, 8, and 9 mile runs anymore. But, of course, I couldn’t sit around and do nothing.

After Christmas, I spent a few days in Utah where I snowboarded for the first time since college. It was fun (if you think falling is fun) and challenging for me. Having grown up skiing and living in Colorado, it reminded me how much I love the snow and the feeling of being on the chairlift and seeing the mountain below me. So after returning home, I started researching programs that offer adaptive ski instruction. I found out about the Torrey Pines Kiwanis Ski Scholarship Program that provides disabled athletes with the opportunity to go to Durango, CO for a week and ski with the Adaptive Sports Association (ASA). I applied and was selected to participate for a week in February.

It was amazing. This time I decided to ski because that is what I had grown up doing and I was finding snowboarding very difficult for me because I was unable to maneuver my prosthetic appropriately for snowboarding. I am so happy I decided to ski because I picked it right back up and had a blast skiing for 4 straight days. I was fortunate to be there with ASA and they were so welcoming! Every person was so friendly and helpful. They are doing great things at ASA- each day they have students of all ages in to ski that have a variety of physical and cognitive challenges.



While there, I had a ski instructor (or 2!) with me each day while I skied Purgatory. MJ was awesome. She challenged me when I needed to be challenged and we explored the mountain all week! Plus, she works for one of the National Parks and was able to give me lessons on the geology and wildlife around.

I also stayed with a wonderful host family, Carol and Mike. It was a really nice week with them as well and I finished the week by making them my famous enchiladas!

There is something so wonderful about growing up in Colorado and then getting off a plane and spending time in the crisp, fresh mountain air. After enjoying my time in Colorado, I decided that next year I will definitely be skiing more!

Day 1 and 2- Ready, Set, Roll

I was able to sneak in some visits with some family and great friends on Friday before all of our Million Dollar Challenge (MDC) meetings started. It was great to see everyone though it was not enough!

My Friday consisted of 3 MDC meetings- Challenged Athlete orientation, freshman orientation and a welcome ceremony. At my Challenged Athlete orientation, I met my handler Willie. My handler is a volunteer who is their to assist me if I need help. I’ve enjoyed getting to know WiIie so far. She has been a CAF volunteer for many years which I love to hear! The freshman orientation gave all newbies to the ride the rundown of the week. Eeek! This made me so anxious and excited at the same time!

After that, the entire group had a Welcome Reception which was really fun! While I have been training with most San Diego based riders over the course of the summer, there were many new faces who are participating but not from San Diego! Every rider also received an envelope with a note about a recent CAF grantee. We were able to read their stories and also received their name on a bracelet to wear or keep on our bikes this week. My CAF grantee is Daniel who lost his leg in a motorcycle accident. Reading Daniel’s story made me wonder if any CAF fundraiser ever read my story when I first applied for a running prosthetic.

On Saturday morning, I woke up bright and early and prepared my many bags for departure. I was so eager I ended up being the 1st one out to the luggage truck! We still had quite a bit of time to eat breakfast and lounge before rolling out at 7:30 but boy was I ready to get this thing started!

Breakfast was fun as every  meal has been. This group of riders is not only fun but incredibly friendly. There is never a time where you aren’t meeting someone new or learning more about another rider.

As we prepared to roll out for our first day, we heard the story of Chase, a member of the CAF community, who recently lost his battle with Muscular Dystrophy. Chase always had a positive outlook and this led his classmates to created the Chase Challenge. We were all given bracelets to wear and each time you complained, you would switch the bracelet to your other arm. This encouraged us to think about complaining about things others are not fortunate enough to experience.

We rolled out of San Francisco with a police escort which was pretty cool! It was Day 1 and we were all VERY eager and pushing ourselves really hard. I kept trying to remind myself I had 6 more days of this and to save my legs. But it was hard! We were cruising and it was just so beautiful! We rode through many sleepy beach towns which I loved!

It wasn’t all easy, I felt my gluts (okay… my butt) after only 10 miles and was a little worried. Climbing hurt a bit but that’s to be expected just not this early on! As I struggled a bit through some pain, I kept thinking about Chase and how I should enjoy every second (even the pain) of this experience since so many others are not able enough to do so. I also thought a lot about my CAF grantee. Had someone asked me 10 years ago if I’d be riding down the state, I would have laughed! And I hope my CAF grantee has that same WOW! moment in 10 years as well.

Late afternoon of Day 1 led us to our first special SAG stop- PIE! It was a cute little mom and pop pie shop outside of Santa Cruz. I enjoyed some fresh Strawberry Shortcake. Then we cruised through beautiful Santa Cruz and up (a very steeeeeep up) to our hotel.

Each evening, we have dinner and a program. Our first night was a Q&A with Jamie Whitmore, another Challenged Athlete. This woman is phenomenal! She has so much determination. Learn more about Jamie here:

I slept like a baby that night! So after Day 1- SF to Santa Cruz- 86 miles done!

I was a little sore when I got up on Sunday morning. I headed to breakfast rocking some Chargers socks because even if I can’t watch the game, I have to rep my team! We rolled out and boyyy was I sore. I was worried. My knees were aching in a way I hadn’t experienced before but I knew I was here to accomplish a goal and I am going to push through to finish. After warming up for a bit I felt much better. We rode from Santa Cruz to Monterey and then rode along 17 mile drive. WOW! I never ever thought I’d get to experience these sights on a bike! It was so fun! We ate lunch in Carmel and then rode up and down some incredibly windy and gorgeous spots on the way to Big Sur. We made it through Big Sur to our hotel in the woods after that. This afternoon’s snacks and cocktail hour theme were Oktoberfest. So of course we enjoyed some beer, brats and pretzels. Yum!

Day 2 has been my favorite out of the two days. Mileage was 89- Santa Cruz to Big Sur.

Tomorrow is one of our longest days- 114- Big Sur to Pismo Beach. It is going to be so challenging but I know i can accomplish it! I just have to be in before dark! Let’s rollllll!


P.S. Sorry about the lack of pictures. We don’t have cell service in Big Sur so I’m unable to get them onto my computer. Tomorrow!

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